I wanted brighter colors and a fun ciber-atmosphere, so I decided to change the blog up a bit for the New Year. 2012's focus is about brightening things up and getting rid of old stuff (people, places and things (things = both physical and emotional)): starting with my job. It's not a vocation, it's a mindless, uncreative job now with a one way 1 1/2 hour commute. After 20 years I'm done. I keep trying to tell myself those 20 years weren't a waste, but at times it's hard to convince myself of that, especially when I'm overwhelmed with sadness and defeat. Then fear comes from not knowing what to do next, and a serving of paralyzation or a 500-lb weight sits on my chest in all it's glorious discomfort. There used to be a time when I knew what I wanted to do, but years of laboring in unsupported, uncreative environments can kill desires of what was once loved. If not killed, they are blurred visions in the distance. But I have to move on and take a risk, even if that's to fail. I don't use the word "fail" in a negative way, but positive. The inspiring Dr. Cornell West always says: "try again, fail again, fail better..." Meaning never give up, keep taking risks, no matter what (or who), that's how one builds setbacks into great things.
In the last couple of weeks I baked delicious fudge and some butterscotch/white chocolate chip cookies. I was so proud of them! Alas no pictures were taken...we gave much of it away and ate the remainder - delicious.
Romeo and Juliet...
Tis an ill cook that cannot lick his own fingers.
In the last couple of weeks I baked delicious fudge and some butterscotch/white chocolate chip cookies. I was so proud of them! Alas no pictures were taken...we gave much of it away and ate the remainder - delicious.
Romeo and Juliet...Tis an ill cook that cannot lick his own fingers.
